No sleep ’til Brooklyn.
I think I slept approximately 56 minutes last night, and work was nutty today, so I’m feeling a bit wonky. In light of that, I’m going to simplify things with a quick list of what’s on my mind today.
- I bought different yogurt on Sunday due to my grocery store being out of my normal brand. It wasn’t until I got home that I realized it was some kind of faux-gurt, all full of aspartame and high fructose corn syrup, and, by the taste of it, EVIL. Tragically, this is basically the kind of yogurt I ate as a dieter, and I’m very sad that I thought that was even food-like, let alone actual food.
- Tomorrow night I’m having dinner with my sister the Weight Watcher and my mom. The question of how to be supportive of my sister without being supportive of her diet is knocking around my noggin, because I know that topic is bound to come up; any suggestions?
- I hate lunges. And squats. But mostly lunges.
- While I was working out today, I thought about the fact that a good 85% of my body has never been objectionable to me. I basically put myself through years of misery because of the 15% of my body that’s upper thigh and ass. How freakin’ crazy is that?
- Both yesterday and today were good days. I did nothing in regards to my body that felt punitive or sad-making, and I felt…sparky. Excited. Even with minimal sleep and 5 AM wake-ups. If this repeats tomorrow, I’m going to call it a streak.
- Some days, I feel like a different person than I was four months ago. It’s been hard, and there has been backsliding and doubt and tears, but I am so proud. Every step, even the really sucky ones, has been worth it.
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#2 — treat it as if she is discussing a book you could care less about. listen, detach, and let go.
#4 — wow. wow. i will be borrowing that one. thanks!
#6 - I’m so glad to hear you’re proud. You’ve worked hard and have achieved so much. You’ve got a lot to be proud of.
Also - as much as it can feel unbelievable, I think most of us wind up making our biggest personal changes in a relatively short amount of time. Four months is plenty long to become a totally different person, in my experience.
In the situation with your sister, can you just take the line ‘you make your choices, I’m making mine’? If WW works _for her_ then great. It may be that it works for a starting point and then she will adjust to a more internally focused ‘plan’. WW doesn’t work _for you_. And that’s fine. She might not be at a place where she’s ready to let go of the structure of an eating plan. It’s all about finding out what works for us personally. She isn’t going to die doing WW. She probably won’t even seriously damage her health. Look at it as a learning experience for her. Some people have to experience things for themselves rather than learning vicariously.
amy, that should totally become my mantra about, well, everything that I find upsetting. “Detach and let go…detach and let go…” Love that!
Thorn, I guess the reality is, I’ve been at this for four months, but the ideas of it were percolating for many, many months before that. It spent a lot of time swirling around in my head before I decided to put it into practice. It’s like how a baby is taking tenative steps, and then 3 weeks later, you’re chasing them all over the house.
timmiro, I get what you’re saying. But I *do* believe that diets are very dangerous, especially to our spirits. And my sister is raising a daughter who is already caught up in the idea of skinny v. fat, so bringing home Points seems like it could have far-reaching repercussions. I adore my sister, and I’m not going to ever say anything that hurts her, but I think I’ll focus on encouraging her new-found appreciation of exercise but steer the conversation away from talk of Points and pounds.
#3 is totally crazy — and i totally identify!